Of new friendships and old ties..

The last few months of my life have been ; well it's really hard to find one adjective for it; nostalgic definitely, eventful in terms of deciding my future for sure and wonderful in the matter of friendships and ties. Yes, so if one adjective could round off the three of these distinctly different feelings, that is what my life has been like. A couple of months without work, sitting at home and contemplating the future with time on hand, being depressive and nostalgic like I have never ever been, cutting myself off from human contact as much as possible, for large periods I had become a loner. I was faced with failure yet again, for as they say a miss is as much as a mile, but life as they say has to go on. And go on it has.

When good things happen, they start happening together. I remember a game show which had a tag line "Dene wala jab bhi deta deta chappad phaad ke". The dene wala never did give chappad phaad ke to the makers of the show, but I guess when things change for the better, they do become drastically better.

Mumbai it was first, the beginning of my mini India tour, where I met some good friends. It was easy to laugh and talk and drink and breathe. I was suffocating in Calcutta, I needed this breath of fresh air. Mumbai rocked, it made me more positive on life. A weekend to forget my worries and spend time with people whom I knew cared. Life suddenly looked better.

Then Delhi, when things finally started working out. The clouds on my future cleared up, and I also met a couple of old friends and had a blast of a time. The joys of friendship are many, but the joy of friendship renewed after a long gap is even better. Friendship is like wine they say, it only matures with time.

Then off to Nagpur it was, a lot of nostalgia, a lot of memories, a few old acquaintances, a few dear people. But the best of all a school friend, one of my great buddies, with whom I had long lost contact. The link was renewed, albeit in adverse circumstances, but renewed nonetheless, and it felt wonderful, reliving those old memories, laughing over those old episodes, sharing moments and feelings.

Then out of the blue, a new friendship. Someone became really close in the span of a couple of weeks. It was evident to me in a moment, that this was a special friendship. It has never been easier to share, it has never been more fun to laugh and talk. I have never ever hesitated a moment in being myself, and really, it never has been easier to be myself. New found friendship is always amazing, and I got a wonderfully fresh perspective on things.

And then a phone call from someone who has and always will be very important in my life, made me really really happy. I had been hiding, shying away, afraid to get hurt. I had shirked the responsibilities that come with friendship, because I was scared it was going to be so weird. But one phone call, and after ages, it was easy once more. All my fears have gone, and I promise I will stay in touch.

And then all of a sudden, I came across my oldest friend, my first friend, someone with whom I have shared my entire childhood. We have laughed and fought and cheated and had amazing times, and talking to him after such a long time was the most wonderful experience. It was so much fun, it was like resuming from where we left off so many years ago. A lot of things have changed I am sure, but a lot remain the same too.

There is so much more that I want to say, so many memories that I want to share, so many things that matter to me so much, so many more people who are important to me, but I cannot say them all. When I meet each and every one of you, one thing is for sure, i will appreciate the fact that you are special. Because truly, i want to thank each and every one of you, for creating those magical happy moments in my life. Thank you so much for being my friends.